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7 weeks December 1, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — vintagevanity @ 8:54 pm

Tomorrow will be seven weeks since my Dad passed away. I can hardly believe that there is a world without him in it. His death sent me into oblivion, the first week being so full of so much activity with preparations for the service and taking care of Mom, then it all stopped. There I was sitting on my couch and there was nothing to do. Worse, there was nothing I wanted to do. The pain was (and still is) more than I feel I can handle. I close my eyes and see him there, or a day is going great and I suddenly stop and think “Dad isn’t here anymore” and it all goes downhill from there. I’m not sure when it happened, but I developed and idea in my mind of how I wanted to memorialize who my Dad was to me. I have always been creative, it is who I am. I have sewn on a machine forever, I have done embroidery, cross stitch, decorative painting, quilting, knitting, crocheting, well there hasn’t been much I haven’t at least tried. But it just wasn’t enough for my project.  So I started looking around for mixed media instruction, and found the coolest website ever and there were classes for just about everything I need for what I want this to embody. So I am taking 2 classes from the incredible and insanely talented Sharon Boggon, Encrusted Crazy Quilting and Personal Library of Stitches. She makes me look lazy with all that she accomplishes, and I will be working on her class assignments for years (yes, they are that informative). On top of that I am taking a Pollage class from Patricia Dibona Although I am doubtful of my abilities to be as free as she is with collage I am having a great time going through the motions. I start an altered tin class with Carol Murphy  next Friday so that I can creat a special keepsake for my 12 year old sister.

So it seems that my Dad has started me on a strange journey, taking my creativity places I never knew it could go. I am even finally creating my own “studio” workplace, in no small part due to my Mom being the wonderful person she is and helping me get the furniture that makes it all so great. My Dad always said that if it was worth doing it was worth doing right, so here I am trying to do it right, the way that makes me happy, that helps me be who I want to be. It will be interesting to see where this all leads me, I might even surprise myself!


4 Responses to “7 weeks”

  1. sharonb Says:

    I am really sorry to hear about your dad

  2. Lynn Says:

    Dear ?–Didn’t find your name, but your blog caught my attention because of some work I’d done called Vintage Vanities.

    Anyway, I’m sorry to hear about your Dad. I lost mine about 7 years ago, and not a day goes by without thinking of him. Know that he will always be with you, because when you ask yourself “what would Dad do?” you’ll know the answer.

    It gets easier with time and love. Lynn

  3. Carol Murphy Says:

    Hi- I am so sorry about your dad. Please email me so we can touch base with each other- You are in my Altered Tin Class at Joggles-

  4. susan b Says:

    I’m so sorry about your dad. I don’t know if this will help but my mom has been gone 18 months now and I’ve learned that Nothing Teaches Us More About Life Than Death. So, I think of this and find the gift I’ve been given as my mother’s child. I can tell you that the amazing sadness at the holidays last year is much much less this year. The wonderful and funny memories are returning and I’ve discovered how incredibly resilliant we are as humans. The loving energy of my heart is with you.

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